Green_Day-_Boulevard_of_Broken_Dreams_(With_Lyrics)
In his mind I am invisible.
In his mind I do not exsist.
In his mind I am NOTHING.
My point is ... I don't get why some guys are so judgemental. I may not be the most attractive girl, that is clear, but atleast in my mind I'm not the UGGLIEST.
The origins of these thoughts arose when I was contemplating how diferent I really am compared to the majoroty of Britians teenagers; I have a strange but handy obsession with William Shakespeare's work, and have read the complete works TWICE. I also listen to entirely different music, and aswell as been Paul McCartney's biggest fan, I also love The Beatles, Pink Floyd, Led Zeppelin and Guns N Roses. And the only modern music I listen too is Punk Rock, bands such as Paramore, All Time Low and You Me At Six.
My hobby (..I purposely used an unplural here as I only really have one) Is writing. I love the way you can find yourself lost inside a clawing tangle of words, pulling at you in every way possible; that before cleverely arranged together have no real meaning, or authority, at all. It also helps me to feel as if I am slowly becoming someone else, a new me, or the character that I have created, and maybe subconcouisly begin to make changes that may improve on how I look, and at times, on how I think.
The whole purpose of this was to finnally admit that I was in love with someone for the majority of last year. He never knew ... and he still dosen't. Plus it wasn't until early this year that I plucked up the courage to tell my closest friend Amy. After that I found it easier to tell others.
But now I'm left with a sitiuation of him not even contemplating my exsistience.
He loves me, he loves me not.
"But now I'm left with a sitiuation of him not even contemplating my exsistience."
And somewhere a young man is thinking the same things about you. Don't spend too much time grasping for the unreachable while ignoring those things that would gladly place themselves in the palm of your hand.
Posted by: The Isle of Mike | 02/15/2010 at 03:17 AM